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I'm sick....down with flu, can't work even though I want to...Yes, its a Saturday night and I'm such a loser 'coz I'm stuck here at home...But its all good. Spending time with my family, getting to stare at my ceiling longer, play with my Aunts kid, update my Blog and Ipod... Its cool!

Depressed...Heartache...ugh! but hey, gotta go through it. Thoughts... about my life in general, God's plan for me, my family, friends and career. Bits and pieces of those just keeps on flashing though my mind. Hey life may suck sometimes but I just have to be thankful that I really am blessed :)

God is great! Guys, remember that...

i'm in awe...gosh...you know...i had two very intelligent girls which i've met past two weeks...i'm not saying anything bad about my other friends but these girls lived up to the hype i heard about them...oh my...Samantha ty and marghaux alcaraz...and i have to say...they just blew me away with their intelligence and down to earth personality...both of these ladies go to admu...and i have to admit...there is a God...hahahahaha...thank you lord for blessing the earth with a few of the lucky ones...coolness...it's like in the movies...you have the beautiful nerdy girl...wow...it really exists...hahahahaha...i've been lucky to meet a few of them and chill with them...life is all good and a bag of chips...hahahaha...i wonder...nah...nevermind...i'll save that for another day and time...

losing your heart...it sucks when you lose the one person you truly love...the pain is unbearable at night...when your in your room and the only thoughts are of her...she haunts you with her smile...she haunts you with her laugh...she haunts you with her eyes...nothing can compare to the feeling of loneliness...no one by your side...no one to say everything will be alright...no one you can stare at and say to yourself, "damn...i'm the luckiest guy on earth...everything is good..." she is there everywhere you look...the mall...the restaurants...boracay...everything reminds you of her...the music...the clothes...damn...i got it bad...and i got it good...she was the first and last thought of the day...the pain of losing the "dreamgirl" you've always wanted...and having her slip through your hands...without a fight...she just goes away...knowing that you could have done so much more...but you never really showed the effort...it hurts to find out that she gave up...but even more...it hurts when you know she is right...i don't blame her...i don't hate her...it's just the total opposite...i love her...i love her with all my heart...with all my soul...i am a broken man...a broken man by my own doing...i pushed her away...i couldn't keep her happy...and i can't take care of her...the one thing i always wanted to do...keep her safe and warm...in my heart and in my home...but now...i have opened my eyes to the truth...i am alone...floating around this world...with no power to push me along...and no one by my side...i miss her...i wish she would miss me too...i love her...i wish she would look back and say...i love you too...oh how i would give to start all over again...to make it all right...to make you mine again...improve on what i didn't do...and make all the things i did right even better...if only i could...tears fill my eyes with every thought of you...the look in your eyes when we boarded the plane...when i told you i was scared...i knew we would be alright...the night my car broke down and you towed my car with your car...i knew i would be alright...and the night you finally said i love you...i knew...i knew it was going to be alright...and i knew what love meant...but this love...has faded away...here i am...in my room...dark...alone...down...my heart is lost...and so am i.

wow...another year has gone by and it's 2008 already...gosh...how time flies...geez to think of it...it was like a few months ago i was put into the early returns with drei...five months so far...haven't caused too much trouble but as always i'm steady...hahahahahahaha...life has been good to me...work has treated me well...and my friends and family are there...oh yeah did i mention i have my baby girl?mmmmmmm...you must have noticed the pic...so at least its in print...hahahahahahahaha...i have to say she is beautiful...how lucky can a guy get...she's not only pretty...she's smart...funny...cool to talk with...be with...shop with...watch movies with...and just to be around with....she has my heart and everything that comes with it...no doubt she's a keeper and i ain't letting her out of my sight...i love her!!!!!wow...senti...hahahahahahahaha

another interesting thing that i came across last year was poker...to be exact...texas hold 'em...great game...as they say....it takes a minute to learn but a lifetime to perfect...hahahahahahahahaha...i would have to agree with that...i got lucky to play in the first poker challenge...i was lucky cuz i was just a sub...and it was nice to learn on the fly...hahahahahahaha...for some reason...i had a nack for the game...and now everyone has been asking me to play...for either friendly or money...hahahahahahahaha...gotta go...till then...laters!!!!!